I’ve said it before, but I don’t think you have some sort of obligation to be funny, especially when something like this is going on. You shouldn’t apologize for it. This was really hard for me to listen to, because you’re my friend and I love you and it’s hard for me to listen to you be in pain when there’s nothing I can do about it, but I know it’s important for you to put your feelings out there, and it’s important to me that I’m privileged to hear you talk about those feelings. You’re braver than I am in a *lot* of ways, your emotional honesty being one of them.
I think, in regards to your inexplicable connection to your mother, a lot of it has to do with the archetype of ‘mother’ which is so important to everyone. You know? in White Oleander the main character talks about how her roommate calls out for her mother while she’s in labor, even though her mother was a drug addict who abused and abandoned her when she was a little kid, and how it wasn’t even about *her* mother specifically, it was about the archetype of ‘mother’ that she’d never had, this magical Mommy who’s supposed to make everything better. And in your case, you’ve seen the person that your mother *could* be, so you have somebody to miss.
Anyway, you know you can call me if you need anything. *hugs*
This was truth, and it is beautiful. wow, this brought tears to my eyes and then the fucking janitor had to come over and empty my trash can. i was trying not to look at him all watery eyed but he insisted on trying to carry on a conversation with me.
Take care and keep being honest with yourself and dont apologies for your feelings.
love ya,
Jono
I’ve said it before, but I don’t think you have some sort of obligation to be funny, especially when something like this is going on. You shouldn’t apologize for it. This was really hard for me to listen to, because you’re my friend and I love you and it’s hard for me to listen to you be in pain when there’s nothing I can do about it, but I know it’s important for you to put your feelings out there, and it’s important to me that I’m privileged to hear you talk about those feelings. You’re braver than I am in a *lot* of ways, your emotional honesty being one of them.
I think, in regards to your inexplicable connection to your mother, a lot of it has to do with the archetype of ‘mother’ which is so important to everyone. You know? in White Oleander the main character talks about how her roommate calls out for her mother while she’s in labor, even though her mother was a drug addict who abused and abandoned her when she was a little kid, and how it wasn’t even about *her* mother specifically, it was about the archetype of ‘mother’ that she’d never had, this magical Mommy who’s supposed to make everything better. And in your case, you’ve seen the person that your mother *could* be, so you have somebody to miss.
Anyway, you know you can call me if you need anything. *hugs*
Comment by Katy — July 22, 2007 @ 6:32 am
This was truth, and it is beautiful. wow, this brought tears to my eyes and then the fucking janitor had to come over and empty my trash can. i was trying not to look at him all watery eyed but he insisted on trying to carry on a conversation with me.
Take care and keep being honest with yourself and dont apologies for your feelings.
love ya,
Jono
Comment by Jono — July 23, 2007 @ 4:25 pm
you guys are really awesome
Comment by marina — July 24, 2007 @ 7:56 am